Sunday, October 08, 2006
2 A&E visits in less than 1 week!
last Wed i was here...
...from 5plus till past midnite. i went to e polyclinic in e afternoon bcos i woke up wif a giant headache n cudnt go for classes. i've been having blurred vision too. so e doc immediately sent me to e A&E @ NUH. she gave me a referral letter n told me to go there straightaway. so i did. by myself. n yes, i was by myself all thruout my stay there. e diagnosis?
IT is still bad. in fact, mayb worse. e hosp doc said tt e level is quite high.
IT is causing my heartbeat to be unstable.
IT has affected my vision. my right eye has complications.
IT is making me lose more weight. i'm lighter than b4.
n after 3 days, another incident happened yest. as a result, dis is Rina now...
yest, i brought Rina to e library @ lot 1. while i was picking out books to borrow, Rina climbed an empty bookshelf and fell on her back. e bookshelf then fell on her. on her left foot to be exact. her 1st 3 toes were in awkward positions n immediately i suspected sumthing broke. i was in shock n i took a few secs to react. den i called Ayah. i pushed e bookshelf away, carried Rina and struggled to grab e bags which were on e floor. thruout e whole thing, ppl (including parents!) looked @ us as though we were zoo exhibits. damn those ppl!
by e time i reached e taxi stand, her foot swelled up n became blue-black. n once again, ppl juz walked past n stared. yes, including mlys. n yes, including makciks2. double damn!! i asked for ice @ e 7-11. but den Rina didnt want anything to touch her foot. called my cd fren. he asked his medic for advice. n told me to brg her to doc. den Ayah arrived n brought us to KK Emergency. Rina was crying all e way.
after e xray, it was confirmed tt her bones broke. e 3 middlebones on her 1st 3 toes were moved on impact. they were crooked, pointing towards e left. e doc had to straighten them back. i followed her into e treatment room. she was given general anasthesia which means her whole body went numb. her eyes were open but she cudnt see me, cudnt hear me, cudnt feel me. n she kept moaning "ahhh...ahhh..." i cudnt hold back my tears. it's like her body was there but her soul isnt. if only we didnt go lib, if only i was looking @ her, if only i saved her, if only i grabbed e bookshelf, if only..., if only...
after e procedure, i sat by her side. her foot was already in a cast. she kept reaching out wif her hands. everytime i held them, she let go n stretched further. @ times she would suddenly cry aloud for a few seconds den stop. e nurse said tt mayb she was having a nightmare bcos her heartbeat rose. after abt an hr, she was back to normal. she woke up for a while but fell back to sleep, exhausted from all e crying. e doc told us to come back on Tues.
dis morning, Rina is better. i tink wen e bones were straightened, e pain improved. no continuous crying anymore but still cries once in a while. she totally hates e cast. keeps telling me to take it off. she cant stand, much less walk. her appetite wasnt affected (thank god!) and her body temperature is normal. alhamdulillah...
my dear peeps, pls pray for her speedy recovery. i cant bear to see Rina in pain. i feel so helpless n tt hurts a lot. i havent gone into self-blame yet, but i'm scared i will soon. pray tt i will have e strength to get thru everything. i feel like a punching bag. everytime sumthing happens, it's like a punch. wat if i cant take anymore punches? Allah is sure testing me right now... 
Suliana Hot Momma at 4:47 PM
