Saturday, March 12, 2005
A whole school term is over and here I am once again updating my blog. Well Suliana, it's about time! I have always been dependent on diaries, whether written or online, ever since I can remember. I guess I found out how de-stressing it can be to write/type down whatever I feel inside. During my school days, I used to write on every piece of paper I can find. Now I'm scrambling to find those pieces of paper. That's one more thing about me. I like to keep whatever I write. When I read it back, I can laugh at how stupid/silly/foolish I was.
I've always been asking myself why writing is so important to me and it hit me! I have no one to talk to about my problems. I've always been a good listener but I've never had someone to listen to me. I mean I do tell my problems to the friends I can trust but when it comes to major situations that can change my life, I prefer to keep it to myself. I guess I'm afraid that when I do talk to someone, I will be judged by that person. What others think of me is very important to me so I don't want anyone to think that well, my life sucks!
Anywayz, for this year, I bought myself a diary so that I can stop writing on pieces of paper. Not every day is filled up with entries but I try to keep up. I think I gotta keep up more with this blog thingy too. It's a good way to express myself and who knows someone out there reading this could help me with whatever crap I encounter with my life. Btw, that's a new word I'll be using. Instead of the usual 'shit', i shall use 'crap'.
I'm really looking forward to the March hols. I feel that I really need the time to myself. No work(that's the best!), no Rina(she'll be in daycare), no husband(he has no time for me anyway) and ultimately NO WORRIES. I can go wherever I wanna go and do whatever I wanna do. I'm not gonna think of anything but myself. I think it's time that I can be a little selfish.
Suliana Hot Momma at 12:33 AM
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