Friday, December 31, 2004
what a gloomy new years eve...the rain is getting heavier by the minute. making me feel sooo lazy. but i cant! i'm supposed to get ready for the new school yr. juz got my timetable on wed. i'm teaching PE! argh...why must they give me PE?? nvm, shant complain abt that anymore. i've been complaining non-stop since wed.
anywayz, the death toll for the tsunami disaster has passed 100,000. what a tragedy. i shant continue, info abt the disaster is everywhere. i dun wanna sound like another newspaper report. juz wanna say that my heart goes out to those who are still searching for their missing loved ones. although u all gotta have that little bit of hope, u gotta be strong n expect the worst.
ok, enough of that, on a brighter side, we're crossing to a new year! i can't believe a year has passed by me so fast. so much has happened, i feel like i have grown a lot(mentally that is!). i hope i shall remain strong n be ready to face the challenges 2005 will bring. insya-allah...
some updates abt my life...we've been viewing some flats. a few have gotten my attention. hopefully we will have our own place by mid-yr. i cant wait 2 decorate my own place. n of course the privacy is what we've been waiting for. if u know what i mean...hehe *wink* we viewed one on the 14th floor last nite. the view is fantastic. my hubby's in love with that flat. we're gonna view that again on mon n if all goes well, i'm gonna be living on the 14th floor! how cool is that?? Suliana Hot Momma at 1:53 PM
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Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Finally, school has started! At least the meetings have. No matter how boooriiing the meetings were, I was in such a good mood juz now. The new CT actually asked me why I seemed so happy. I must look crazy in her eyes. Hehe...I can't help it! I've been bored to death @ home. It was nice to see so many familiar faces...and of course there was an opportunity to show off my new phone. Hehehe...juz kidding.
Anywayz, I juz wanna say something abt the terrible disaster that has struck our neighbouring countries. I feel so sad after watching the pictures of the damage that had been done. My heart goes out for the victims and their families. One particular disturbing image in my mind is of this mother who keeps shaking her baby hoping that he will wake up. She kept crying out and didn't wanna accept the fact that he was dead. I can totally understand how she feels. I cried looking @ that footage. I can't imagine how I will feel if I lose my Khairina Adrienne. There's this other story in TNP today. This mother was holding on to her daughter but lost hold of her when they were swept away. Imagine that. U have your daughter in your arms one moment and the next, she's gone forever. They found the body of her daughter in a field dead. For the locals, it's not juz the loss of their loved ones, it's also the loss of their homes, their treasures. They practically have nothing except for what they have on their backs.
The most heart-wrentching thing to me is the fact that many of the dead are kids. They juz didn't have the strength to run away in time. When they got swept away, they didn't have the strength to keep themselves afloat. So many innocent lives lost juz like that. They didn't even have the chance to grow up and enjoy life. So sad right?? Sigh...And there's no one to blame except Mother Nature. Why wasn't there a warning anyway? I thought technology should be advanced enough for this?? Suliana Hot Momma at 3:24 PM
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Thursday, December 23, 2004
I'm juz abt ready to burst!!!
Argh!!!!
I need to start working again. As much as I absolutely love that I can juz go out anytime I want, I am bored to death. Having time on my hands is making me think too much and it's stressing me out! And as much as I love spending time with my daughter, I need my own space too. I'm juz afraid that she will be in the wrong place @ the wrong time when I blow my top. Which is anytime soon unless I get my freedom. I wanna go out but with who?? My hubby's always so damn busy. And the person I wanna go out with...I'm not supposed to. OMG! It's killing me inside. And to top it all off, there's something wrong with my comp...or specifically my IRC. I have no idea whether it's me or the system itself. I suspect there's a virus in my comp. I dunno who the hell did it but I'm very upset. Plus the comp's running so slow. It's sooo frustrating!!
Tonight my hubby's not coming back. He's sleeping over @ his friend's place. I know I know...very suspicious right...but like I care. He's welcome to start another affair if he wants to.
Suliana Hot Momma at 10:10 PM
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
The piano is gone. All thanx to the hopeless case I call a father. Forgive my language, but that's juz the way he is. It's a long story...I could be cruder though, but I shall not do that publicly. I'm sad but no tears are shed. I guess it's because I'm feeling mixed emotions. Sadness, regret, disappointment and especially anger. Will I ever be able to save up to buy one for my daughter? I want her to know the magic of making music. I'm frustrated but I'm not showing it. I'm juz afraid I will blow my top soon. I have so much on my mind. Haven't been able to sleep @ night, haven't had any appetite to eat, feeling lazy all the time...Why am I allowing this to happen to me???
My mind is a mess
It's like "rojak" inside
Doing a difficult test
It's like a roller-coaster ride
One moment I'm delirious
The next I'm upset
This can't get serious
Emotional distress I'll get
I'm confused
I can't confide in anyone
I don't wanna refuse
What's done can't be undone
I know what's the truth
But can't admit it to myself
I must keep denying the truth
To anyone I musn't confess
Suliana Hot Momma at 1:52 PM
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Monday, December 20, 2004
hey peeps, wassup? juz changed my blogskin again. nice or not ah? hmm...i kinda preferred the previous one. but nvm, i shall change again one of these days. got too much time on my hands. my weekend was great. one of the best i've had in a while. went out by myself on Friday, that was nice. went out with my hubby on Saturday. we watched Ocean's Twelve. i bought 2 fantastic tops. bought stuff for Khairina as well. it almost felt as though we were back to our romantic dating days. almost lah ah. on Sunday, we went out as a family. brought Rina window-shopping @ Eastpoint. she loved watching the rabbits @ Pet Safari. then in the evening went to my friend's birthday party @ Aloha Loyang Resorts. it is a very nice place. i love that the swimming pool is juz outside the terrace. should rent one of those pool terraces one day. hmm...maybe next year ah...
i've got no plans for today. it's gonna be a booorrriiinnnggg Monday. but at least my hubby's spending it with me. as if that's a good thing. he's juz gonna plant himself in front of the comp and ignore me the whole day. sigh...what should i do today???
Suliana Hot Momma at 2:35 PM
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Friday, December 17, 2004
hey peeps, missed me? it's been sooo long since i've blogged. well anywayz, here's an update of my life...
having hols now. confirm gonna take a P3 class when sch reopens next mth. a bit excited abt tt. i'm gonna have my own form class! how cool is tt? i vow to do better than i did 2 yrs ago.
celebrated my 2nd wedding anniversary 2 days ago. i bought him Football Manager 2005. he cooked steak & tortillas for dinner. we had sparkling wine (non-alchoholic). if only there were candles. then it would have been complete. a truly romantic dinner...
life's going ok for me now. days are passing slowly. mostly slacking @ home nowadays. if not that, i'm out shopping. which reminds me...we got the bonus! yea! i got myself the nokia 7260. it's like sooo cool! i cant stop looking @ it.
i guess tt's it for now. will update again in the near future.
Suliana Hot Momma at 7:06 AM
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