Friday, November 25, 2005

pada 19hb Nov, kami telah kehilangan seorang suami, seorang bapa, seorang datuk dan seorang yoyot...

on the 19th of Nov, we lost a husband, a father, a grandfather and a great-grandfather...

my dear beloved Atuk, i know you're in a better place now. and i know Allah took you because he loves you more than we do. although i'm very saddened when u left us, i'm also glad because you don't have to endure any further pain.

a lot has changed since you left us. Nenek is no longer the cheerful person she used to be, although i know she's trying hard to be. the others are basically trying to hide their sadness. i guess we're all trying hard to be strong for one another.

i miss you Atuk. i still think of you when you were well, when you were in the hospital, when you breathed your last breath and when you were lying there before the burial. i wanted to kiss you for a while longer but the coldness of your skin shocked me. i've never touched a dead body before so it didn't occur to me that it'ld feel that cold.

i wish i could have talked to you before you left. there's so much i wanna tell you. i didn't even get a chance to seek forgiveness. i'm sorry Atuk. i'm sorry if i have ever been a burden to you. i'm sorry if i have ever made you worry. i'm sorry if i have ever hurt your feelings.

i'm happy that you got a chance to spend time with your great-granddaughter. but she's so young, she may not remember her great-grandfather. don't worry, i'm gonna tell Rina so much stories about you that she will feel as though she knows you.

i know you can't hear me now. but someday we'll meet again. i don't know when but i know we will. i shall be waiting for that special day.

i love you Atuk. and i will never forget you..

Suliana Hot Momma at 10:09 AM

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